Well, I think it’s about time for me to actually sit down and spend some time to redesign my websites. I want to implement a better layout with more uniform navigation, better links to projects and interests, and easier back-end maintenance.

I’ve been using Drupal 6.x for about 2 years now and while it is very flexible, it is not always the easiest to maintain, especially when weird errors crop up. I also had a personal WordPress site that I was using for about a year, but because of some unhealthy interest in my site, I decided to mothball it. Well, except that I recently imported into WordPress MU for testing.

Anyway, looking at my traffic logs for the past month or so, I think that most of the personal interest in me has died down. I still have traffic from a particular segment of the Internet redirected, so hopefully that will help keep me off their radar.

I have a lot of random projects that I’ve started working on. Here is a short list of a few of them:

* A WordPress import module to convert a Drupal site backup/export file

* A WordPress module to implement an JavaScript based ePub reader and export function

* Various patches to fix and/or expand the functionality of open source projects

* Various other programming projects

* Creative/artistic projects, including 3D modeling, drawing, music, poetry, and writing

I’ve had a lot of personal goals I’ve wanted to accomplish, but I’ve only made fits and starts on most of them. They have been like a distant shoreline while at sea, never seeming to grow closer despite the passing of time.

If I am totally honest with myself, I know I still have a lot of emotional issues to still work out and I am still hurting and scared. I don’t know how or when I’ll get over some things, but I can’t wait for my life to be perfect before I start. I wish with all my heart that some things could be different, but in the end, I have to make the most of what I’ve been given.

I want to create, to give away a piece of who I am, to share myself… my heart, my soul, my mind, and my strength.

I am just a man, and a broken one at that. But I believe in the heart of each of us lies the ability to transcend our situation and become something greater than our feeble minds can imagine. I want to dream big, even if it forces my heart to ache. That for me is the passion of being alive. To yearn, to love, to struggle, and never give up or let go.

Hopefully my life may serve as a beacon to someone else who feels lost at sea ;-)