Well, the weekend is over and after too much time feeling sorry for myself, its time to put up or shut up.

I have been blessed with many talents and while it’s been a struggle for me to overcome my own failings, I know I have the ability to succeed. This is my life and no one is required to make things better for me other than myself. Okay, so things didn’t go quite how I would have liked them, but obsessing over the past isn’t going to make the future any better.

I don’t care if I’m going to have to give up some things or work a second job, I will find a way to see my girls. Whether or not I am able to sell my items in storage or just give them away, I will find a way to cut my expenses. And though it pains me, if I have to give up my own little corner of the Internet, I still will survive.

I’m stubborn and I’m not going to give up. I may not know how to fight, but I’ll learn on my feet if I have to. Some things are beyond my grasp now, but the things I can reach, I will fight for as long as I have strength. My eldest only has 8 more years before she goes to college and I doubt my ex has put aside any of the child support I’ve given her for their education.

I may not be able to have everything I want in life, but at least I can show my girls how much they are loved and how important they are. In the meantime, I will find a way to make ends meet. Hopefully I won’t have to miss seeing my girls at all, bit if I do at least I know I’m doing my best and that I won’t give up.